We Have Conversations With Our Selves
I stepped out the door
of that blinding, silver jet
kiss perfection goodbye,
welcome regret
I only wanted their praise
Make them proud, feel supported
I wanted their tender hearts
I’m so sorry very sorry family your lives were aborted
It’s so puzzling
And uncomfortably quiet out here
We shiver silently by night
On our toes when dawn’s near
I often question myself
Wonder why I enlisted
To have sanity ripped harshly
My reality set drifted
I see killings
And killings and deaths of my friends
If there’s one thing I’ve learned
Don’t make friends, now pretend
Pretend that you’re not thinking
God, what if I’m choosen next
Though, leave my body and my troubles
Sore, the sky’s mine, perplexed
But that would mean leaving them
It’s against my morals
I’ll stay alive, 'cause I love them
It can't be a death quarrel
Now I’m certain,
For sure
Don't worry, no debate
No light in the tunnel, no open gate